Not An Ordinary Love Story

Does your heart resonate at the same frequency as mine?

I staggered down the side walk. Grabbed on a light pole to keep my balance. An avalanche of emotions overwhelmed me. I clinched my chest trying to get rid of the pain, this emptiness that was creeping in. I walked over to my car in the parking lot, desperately trying to find my keys somewhere in my coat pocket. I looked around ‘Decembers are always cold’ I thought to myself. The keys drop out of my pocket onto the tarmac, I tried reaching for them and drop to my knees, my legs have finally caved. I couldn’t stand anymore, I felt a wave of weakness sweep over me. Tried grabbing my keys, tears rolled down cheeks into the snow, they melted instantly. I raised my head, tears still rolling down my face. I looked up at the sky, no stars, no moon just plainness. Flakes of snow fell on my face, the coldness felt great on my skin. Struggling to get to my feet, I unlocked the car and got in. The fine leather interior was ice cold. My first instinct was to switch the engine on and heat it up a bit, after all there were heaters in the seat but for some reason I preferred the cold, it was soothing. For a second I was thinking of the cold and not the gaping hole in my heart.

Her words kept resonating in my head ‘I know what my heart and mind is telling me and I don’t feel that way about you anymore’ and that wasn’t even the worst part, ‘there is someone else, started talking to him a lot lately and it feels different, the way we are when we are together. I think he is someone I can love and I want to pursue that’

I squeezed the steering wheel with all the strength I could muster and sobbed quietly. I had just lost the only woman I had ever loved. The only woman I had ever had the guts to open up my soul to. She was my best friend, my only true friend. I lost more than a lover, I lost my heart, I lost a piece of my soul, I lost my future, I lost the ‘grow old together’ person, my personal person.

I turned the ignition and started driving, I didn’t know where I wanted to go. I just wanted to be away from here. I sped in reverse, and just drove. Normally I would play music but today I just wanted the quiet. The memories kept playing in my head, from the very beginning. I could remember the very first time I set my eyes on her

A Few Years Ago

Laughter filled the air, the smell of salt water came with breeze.

“Fam, you want a beer?” Richard asked me handing me a beer. He was a new friend I made here, funny guy, really uncouth sometimes but a funny guy nonetheless.

“Sure” I replied taking it from him.

“Dude, 4 o’clock” he gestured. I looked and walking towards us was Emily, a girl he had hooked up with the night before.

“Hey guys” she said excited “I have been looking for you all night” she continued. She proceeded to plant a kiss on Richard’s lips

“We’ve been here all night” he replied. She sat beside him and they started whispering to him.

‘Well I guess that’s my cue’ I thought to myself. I looked around, loud music playing and people dancing all around us. I looked over my shoulder ‘Damn!’ I thought, Cher the girl I have been trying to avoid the night before waved at me and started walking towards me. “Shit” I whispered under my breath “not again”

“Hey!” she exclaimed. ‘Damn you are so loud’ I thought to myself smiling

“Hey, how’s you been?” I asked

“Well I feel much better now because I get to see you again” she said smiling “You vanished last night, I couldn’t find you anywhere. If I didn’t know better I would say you were trying to avoid”

‘I am trying to avoid you! Take a hint geez’ I thought to myself. “Well no, I was just really tired from all the activities I did earlier in the day. That volleyball took a toll on me” I said with a smile “well at least we meet again and this time around I am not losing you” she said

‘This woman is a psycho’ I thought to myself ‘why won’t she leave me alone’

Cher proceeded to tell me all she’s been doing earlier in the day. I smiled at her pretending to listen. ‘I need to find an excuse to ditch her today as well’. For a moment my eyes wondered a bit and that’s when I saw her, laughing and walking hand in hand with another girl I thought was her friend. I couldn’t take my eyes off her.

“Are you even listening to me?” Cher jerked me ‘What the fuck is wrong with you!’ I exclaimed in my head. If I was white I would have been red. “Excuse me” I said “I need to find my roommate” I continued, walking away “Wait!” Cher tried to follow me “I just got to go alone, I will link up with you later” I said starting to run

I need to know who that is, I have never seen anyone more mesmerizing I thought to myself desperately trying to set my eyes on her but she was nowhere to be found she was gone. Just like that, she vanished the same manner she appeared. I walk along the entire beach trying to find her. ‘This can’t be happening, how does one just vanish damn’ I thought to myself. I searched for almost an hour and half for any sign of her. ‘I guess we weren’t meant to meet. I should probably get a beer’ I thought to myself as I walked into bar.

And there she was! On the dance floor with her lady friend dancing.

to be continued.....